Well after a long weekend of binging and a packing around a huge load of guilt – I QUIT!!!!!!!!!!! The diet that is. I’ve been reading my training books again this week and cannot believe how EVERY ONE of my training guides say the same thing “Do NOT try to diet while training for a marathon!!!!”
Last year I lost almost 20 lbs — without ever counting a calorie or measuring a portion or writing down what I ate. I just ran. I’m almost back to the fitness level I was before I got injured, closing in on the distances I was running before — and I’m finding it harder and harder to stick to my “points” or “calories” for the day without having headaches, cramps in my legs (from lack of calcium), and irritability. I do want to lose those last 15 lbs or so — but — not at the risk of failing in my training goals! I talked to husband about it last night and asked his advice. He told me, “I thought it was a bad idea from the start. Focus on your running, try to eat more healthfully — but don’t diet.”
So — that’s where I’m at — I quit! I can’t believe how badly I lost control this weekend, guys! On Thursday night, after the great weigh-in — my hubby asked if I wanted something “fun” after the kids were in bed. I said “yes” and he ran out and bought me a small burger and a small fries and an apple rickey (like a lime or cherry one but with apple flavoring.) I felt like such a bad girl — such a cheater — but I savored every bite!!!!! I can’t tell you how much I’d missed eating so badly! Then Saturday, Wayne went and bought me a chocolate cream pie! I had one slice but felt soooo guilty the whole time!!!!!! I sipped some 7-up on Sunday with Wayne while we sat on the back porch swing. I think I had 3 sips – but I was so mad at myself for not sticking with the diet.
I really suck at diets, guys. I always have. I’m a very compulsive, obsessive person and becoming overly focused on portions and calories makes me want to do “even better” than expected and then I end up miserable and can’t hang in there. I really admire those who can do this sort of thing for the long haul. I don’t know how you do it!
I really do think I learned more about eating nutritiously though. That’s a positive! I don’t intend to go out and buy more soda and chips or cookies anytime soon. Those are things I really do think should only be a “sometimes treat” and not a daily one. I’m excited I found more healthful bagels, english muffins, yogurt and granola bars and I’ll keep buying those for the whole family instead of the less healthful ones I’d been used to buying. I’m more excited about veggies again. I learned to use them in some new ways and will keep trying to encourage the kids to “eat your 5 servings a day”. So, there are some pluses!
But….here I am at 133.8 (this morning) and I’m ready to fuel my tank again when I need to. I’m going back to drinking skim milk more and eating lowfat cheese again. (I was trying to avoid both since they are “high in points”) My leg cramps will be thankful for that decision.
Last year, when I just ran, I lost about 1/2 a lb a week eating whatever I wanted. It was slow but steady and it stayed off once I lost it. I can do that again!
Big hugs to you guys for being supportive and understanding!! I appreciate you!
My mileage for last week was 18.62. I’m very proud of that. I’m getting there! I was up to 25 miles a week when I got hurt and I’m doing a great job at sloooowwly ramping my distance up — trying not to do more than 10% more than the previous week. My hip feels GREAT again! I’m so happy about that. Tomorrow I’m doing my first 8 miler for this year. I’m feeling strong and am not worried about the distance. I think when I hit 10, I’ll start to have a bit of fear again since I’ve only gone that distance or longer twice before! So, I’ll be needing some encouragement as I hit those milestones and step into the UNKNOWN for longer distances.
I can do it! I can do it! – That’s my mantra! Keep moving forward!!!!!!!!!!
Happy Running, gals!