04/29/09

I Wish I Was Naturally Thin Like My Sister

Just got home from a late evening run. 2.02 miles, 22:25 minutes. I ran every step until I heard my watch beep at the 2 mile mark. I did walk the .02.  Ave pace: 11:07, best pace – 9:07. Slooowwly but surely getting there.

Mild ache in the hip tonight. I wore the cushion shoes. Hmm…. starting to wonder if I need to use the stability shoes on my tempo runs or any harder efforts and save the cushions for easier ones.

Still have a dark, rainy cloud over my head and heart about how my body looks.  My sister was at my house when I got back from my run tonight. Truth be told, in the pictures I’m frustrated with — my sweet sister looks amazing. She’s so tiny — about 108 lbs and she just looks fantastic. She’s never dieted or exercised a day in her life. Lucky duck!

I, on the other hand think I’ll be fighting my fat cells for eternity.  I wish I didn’t compare myself to her. She’s very sweet and always encouraging to me. It’s a “me” problem. I am fat for “me” and this body frame. I need to lose those 15 lbs to feel proud of my body again. I hope I can do it……

04/29/09

My Tentative Schedule

My Tentative Schedule

Sunday – Rest

Monday – 3 Mile run/walk

Tuesday – Pilates

Wednesday – Run 3 miles

Thursday – Pilates

Friday – Long Run (5, 6, 7, 4, 8)

Saturday – Easy walk with family (1 – 2 miles)

Weekly mileage goals
1st – 12 – 13m
2nd – 13 – 14m
3rd – 14 – 15m
4th – 11 – 12 m
5th – 15 – 16 m

04/29/09

Why Must He Always Be Right?!

My husband just looked at my plan and this is what he said “I think it’s unrealistic. You’re doing great with the running …but you should add ONE thing to the month of May — not 4 new things (bike, yoga, pilates and strength.) He said…. if you do well with that add one more activity in June. — I think he might be right. He said he’s afraid of me setting myself up for a failure if I don’t make it achievable. Hmm…

If I only should add one – I’d choose Pilates/core work. One of the main things I was told by my chiro about my injury is that a weak core contributed to it — and that it can happen again if I don’t work on that. So…… back to the drawing board — but – I think he’s probably right.  He’s good for me. I tend to shoot for the moon.

04/29/09

Trying To Create My Own Schedule

Ok.. I think I have a better plan ……

May Training Schedule

Sunday – Bike Ride (30 min) + Strength Train (both pm)

Monday – Yoga (am) 3 Mile run/walk (pm)

Tuesday – Strength Train (am) Pilates (pm)

Wednesday – Run 3 miles (pm) + Yoga (pm)

Thursday – Rest

Friday – Long Run (5, 6, 7, 4, 8) (am) + Core ball (pm)

Saturday – Easy walk with family (1 – 2 miles)

Weekly mileage goals
1st – 12 – 13m
2nd – 13 – 14m
3rd – 14 – 15m
4th – 11 – 12 m
5th – 15 – 16 m

Total miles for the month would not exceed 70 and on the low end would be 65. Better, I think!

04/29/09

Yes, I’m Obsessing!

Hmm….the total miles for the month would put me at 75+. I may have to tinker with this some more. This month will be around 45. That seems too big of a jump. Monthly and weekly should be around 10% to prevent injury. Hmm…… let me play around with it.

04/29/09

May Schedule

I revamped my May training schedule. How does this look?
May Training Schedule
Sunday – Bike Ride (30 min) + Strength Train (both pm)

Monday – Yoga (am) 4 Mile run/walk (pm)

Tuesday – Strength Train (am) Pilates (pm)

Wednesday – Run 3 miles (pm) + Yoga (pm)

Thursday – Rest

Friday – Long Run (6, 7, 8, 5, 9) (am) + Core ball (pm)

Saturday – Easy walk with family (1 – 2 miles)

Weekly mileage goals
1st – 14 – 15m
2nd – 15 – 16m
3rd – 16 – 17m
4th – 13 – 14 m
5th – 17 – 18 m

04/29/09

My April Measurements

I’m having a low today.  My weight is still 133.4, which is a fine start and within my “normal weight watchers range of 113 – 141” but… I just uploaded the pictures from Joshua’s birthday party from last night and I just want to  I look so HUGE still 

I need to keep reminding myself I’m starting over again after taking 3 months off. I lost some fitness. I still need to lose about 15 lbs. My heart just sank today though. I’ve been feeling better when I see myself in front of the mirror. I can wear most of my favorite clothes in the closet — but I’m short and my boobs and stomach are just oversized for my body. I need to do core work, which I’ve neglected in the past.

Just last night, as I was laying on the bathroom floor naked (I do some of my best thinking there late in the night )…..I noticed that when I ran my palms from my waist area up to my ribs – along my sides — I couldn’t feel anymore pudge! Even with gravity pulling on me while laying there. That really cheered me up. I definitely still have plenty of pudge — especially my chest, stomach, upper arms, hips and thighs — but — hey- at least running is whittling my waist area a bit. But, dang it, seeing those photos this morning just brought me emotionally crashing back down.

I keep telling myself “if you don’t like it — keep doing what you’re doing and it will get better.” Days like this I’d rather just pull the covers up over my head and hide with a bag of dove chocolates while I whine that I’ll be fat forver.  I need a kick in the butt to keep slowly working on my health though.

Last night I did come up with a new training schedule that included some cross training. It looks like this:

Sunday – Bike Ride (30 min)
Monday – Yoga (morning) — 4 mile run/walk (eve)
Tuesday – Pilates (morning)
Wednesday – Yoga (morning) — Run (no walking) 3 miles
Thursday – Pilates or Weights (morning)
Friday – Long Run (evening) – 6 miles

(add one mile each Friday for 3 weeks, then back to 5, then step up to +1 of where I left off – following, hard, harder, hardest, easy, hard, harder, hardest, easy pattern.)

My long run schedule will look like this: 6, 7, 8, 5, 9, 10, 11, 5 (make sense?) — I’ll adjust if injury sneaks in or I feel my body isn’t ready to leap ahead. It’s ok to take it easy if you need to.

Saturday – Easy walk with family – 1 – 2 miles

Total miles running or walking — approximately 14 – 15 for next week.

I did 12.29 last week, so this keeps close to the 10% increase rule. Increasing your weekly milage by more than 10% can results in injury (just ask the girl who increased by 50% in November last year and had her hip go out in December!)

Another thing I thought about was measurements. It can be very encouraging to take all- over measurements once a month, write them down and them compare them later. I am almost done with April, so I did mine today.

Here’s where I’m at:
Breasts – 37 in
Under Breasts (bra band area) – 30 in
Relaxed waist – 29 1/4 in
Sucking in waist – 28 1/2 in
Belly (widest part) – 33 in
Hips – 37 1/4 in
Neck – 12 1/4 in
Upper Arm – 10 1/2 in
Elbow – 9 in
Wrist – a little smaller than 6 in
Upper Thigh – 20 3/4 in
Lower Thigh – 16 1/2 in
Knee – 13 in
Calf (widest part) – 13 1/2 in
Ankle – 8 in

Main measurements (breast, waist, hips) — 37 X 29 1/4 X 37 1/4

The first time I took measurements of myself and wrote them down was last July. At that point, I weighed 144 lbs and my “main measurements” were 40 X 32 X 38 3/4. I only wrote down 3 others – upper thigh – 21 3/4, lower thigh – 17 and belly – 38. It is good to see progress.

I still have a ways to go. Could use a little pep talking today!!!!!  that I CAN get skinny again!!!!

04/27/09

I Must Be Getting A Little Smaller

Just got home from a short run. 2.34 miles with a total time of 30:01. Ave pace (includes walking) – 12:50, best pace – 5:08. I’m still dragging on these runs and am feeling discouraged that I can’t pump out several miles without walk breaks.  I miss my endurance and I hope that if I keep going at this — it indeed will return. I did wear a running top tonight that I bought last year on clearance which was much too small then. This was the first wearing and I was still a little self-conscious in it. Need to tone that weak core of mine and then I bet I’ll wear it with pride. 

So far for this week (my calendar weeks start on Sundays) — 5.34 miles on the legs. I think I’ll make my monthly goal of 45 miles for April. That makes me happy.